Wednesday, May 17, 2006

My view of the world.....

Last year, Art gave me this darling birdhouse for Mothers day and we put it on an old porch column in my flower bed. I am loving how nice it is all looking! I can look out the kitchen window and see this beautiful fence row with the iris in bloom and the cat mint...plus a grapevine is twining itself along the fence now. It is a work in progess, but I love it! Posted by Picasa

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Running into the sun but I'm running behind

Looking out at the road rushing under my wheels
Looking back at the years gone by like so many summer fields
In sixty-five I was seventeen and running up one-on-one
I don't know where I'm running now, I'm just running on
Running on-running on empty
Running on-running blind
Running on-running into the sun
But I'm running behind
Gotta do what you can just to keep your love alive
Trying not to confuse it with what you do to survive
In sixty-nine I was twenty-one and I called the road my own
I don't know when that road turned into the road I'm on
Running on-running on empty
Running on-running blind
Running on-running into the sun
But I'm running behind
Everyone I know, everywhere I go
People need some reason to believe......Jackson Browne

Ok....53 sucks big time! Turning 40 did not bother me...I guess I thought I still had half my life ahead of me....50 bothers me big time and now 53.....so what got me in the funk?

I so desperately need a career change! I am bored! I am not challenged! I need to do something that interests me and I have been doing some soul searching. I think the only way to make a career change is to go back to school. I'm seriously thinking about a 2 year degree in graphic design. Ok...that has me excited! I'm looking at the courses...seeing how to work them into my life and still work full time.

Then I go to Starbucks at lunch for a cup of hot tea and I sit and think....and I think "ARE YOU NUTS? WHY DO YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THIS?"

Every day, I go home dead tired(not because I work hard)....I'm just brain-dead from lack of stimulation and burn-out! So how am I going to have the energy to go to school and do the projects? Right now I feel like I am running on empty...I can't get it all done! Housework...yardwork...laundry...familytime...Art-time....I guess I want too much and I want it all! Maybe the schooling will energize me and give me a purpose....or have I waited too long?

I could easily be 56 before I get finished...and would anyone hire me because of my age? If the free-lance market could use me, I guess I could do that....so much to think about! Gotta keep talking myself into this and looking into. I think I will sign up for at least one class to take over the summer and see how it goes.

We are off to the lake for a fun weekend of scrapping and fellowship! My scrappin' girlfriends and I are taking off tomorrow afternoon! Happy Dance!


Thursday, April 20, 2006

Bad blogger!

I am so bad about posting to my blogs...I think of things I want to post...then the day gets away from me and I am brain-dead! Sometimes I think I get absolutely nothing accomplished other than going to work...fixing supper..and going to bed. Seems like a vicious cycle...then the weekend comes and I try to cram more into it than I can possibly accomplish...and get frustrated and give up! Maybe if I write down what I actually do in a day, then go back and read it, I might not be so frustrated with myself.
My job does not challenge me! I am so burned out on dentistry! I have done this for 28 years! I don't know how to do anything else!
OK...no more whining!
I have decided to simplify my life a bit...2 weeks ago I decided to sell my lake house. Much to Art's dismay! But it is a 2 1/2 hour drive each way, gas is only going UP and UP...it is a lot to take care of 2 households! It seems I am always being pulled on weekends and wind up feeling fractured. Think I will take the profit and buy a house here in KC that is big enough for friends and family to come and stay. My plan is to have it paid for or nearly paid for by the time I retire...or at least have payments that are easy on the budget.
The realator says that lake front property is in huge demand, so we will see if my timing is right! One day after it was on the market, there was a bid, but it was $15000 below my asking price...so no to that one. Tomorrow there is someone going to look at it..so we shall see.
We are off to the lake after work tomorrow.....it looks like it will be a beautiful weekend! Hope the fish are biting!!!! I love to sit on the dock and watch the world go by! I know I will miss sitting on the deck and I will miss the incredible view! But I all ready feel like a load has been lifted and if it is meant to sell it will!

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Caleb ratted me out!

There are M&M's in the cup and of course the bag of Cheetos! Caleb went home and said that Gramma gave him cheetos and M's to eat! We need to have a talk! Can't be telling our secrets, Caleb!
We had so much fun this weekend! We gave him a wooden tool set and he had a great time "fixing" everything! It is so fun to watch him play!
Late Sunday evening, I started in with the vomitting and diaherra again...seems like it has become my friend lateley. Going to the GI man today...hope he can figure out what is going on!
Living in a bathroom is no fun! Posted by Picasa

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Quilt Retreat!

Woohoo! Can't wait...it's almost Saturday and then I'm off to 3 relaxing days at "The Barn Bed and Breakfast Inn".....my annual quilting retreat! I love the down time...no demands on my time or cooking....just ME time. Guess I am a bit selfish....poor Art is lost when I go off on my own....he needs a hobby or SOMETHING to do! I don't feel it is my job to keep him entertained....it's a hard job sometimes....
Stephany and I had a good time last weekend...on Friday, we went to Archivers and did the Make and Takes, then went to Mary's yoga class....it was good. On Saturday, we went to an all day crop at Scrapbookers Dream...we had a great day! Matt took care of Jordyn so that Steph could have some ME time....once again, Art was left to his own devices, so on the coldes day of the year....he drives down to the lake! Now that is being BORED...or it is avoiding my kids! Probably both!

This is the Barn...check it out!
http://www.thebarnbb.com/
Can't wait!!!!!

Monday, February 13, 2006

Camp Gramma

Camp Gramma

I'm so excited! I have been accepted to be part of Kimberly Giarrusso's Design team! Using her darling designs, I will be posting layouts to The DigiChick (www.thedigichick.com) and to DigiScrap Divas (www.digiscrapdivas.com) Can't wait to get started!
I know I am a creative person...it's so nice that others think so as well!

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Making Valentine Cards

This is what being a Gramma is all about!!!

Caleb and I made Valentines (shh! they are for mommie and daddy) while Mommie went to yoga class.
He has decided that glue is sticky...but does not quite get the concept that is will make things stick together. He cannot operate the punches...but was determined to try! I wish Jordyn was here to help us! Posted by Picasa