"You will never find time for anything. If you want time, you must make it."
~ Charles Buxton
Sometimes I feel like I don't get anything done! I cannot think of the last time I actually sat at my sewing machine and worked on a quilt! But I think the real problem is that I can't sit and focus very well....is it menopause?
One of the reasons I like to scrapbook is that it is instant gratification! But I miss the sense of peace that would come to me when at my sewing maching or curled up in front of the TV stitching. Sewing has always been my "tranquilizer"...now it is my frustration!!!! So how do I overcome it?
On Wednesday evening, I try to go to my yoga class. I really do enjoy it, not only for the benefits it has on my body....love that twisting and stretching...but also the benefits it has to my mind. I am trying to "get in touch with myself"....asking is this all there is? (I think it's called mid-life crisis) You know the drill:
pity parties, beating myself up, fatigue....and there are so many things I want to do and I defeat myself by thinking I don't have the time. Or when I do have time, I do not use it wisely because of the fatigue or depression. Therefore, I am trying very hard to become more mindful and control my thoughts and actions.
I am very excited about a yoga workshop I am attending next Saturday....we will be learning about forgiveness! I so need it....I have tried for so long...in church, through prayer....I guess I am not going at it the right way. Two people I need to forgive are myself and my dad. I can "say" it, but I don't mean it. Hope to gain some insight! I have forgiven my mom...that is a positive.
Karah with Blue Flambingo has asked me to be part of her creative team. She has a brand new website and beautiful digi-scrapping kits to work with.
And last but not least....I got some very GOOD news this week. Two weeks ago, Dennis was admitted to the hospital with a collapsed lung and pneumonia. On the x-ray, they saw what appeared to be a tumor. My kids and I were devastated, we did not want my sis and family to go through the nightmare that we had 6 years ago.
The good news is....no tumor, no cancer, it's a stone! Possibly a peppercorn that he had aspirated and it calcified. When they did the second biopsy, the Dr was able to destroy the stone and with antibiotics, Dennis is on the mend! Praise God!!!